My mom called. My grandma doesn't want me to stay there after all. And if I do stay there she doesn't want me to bring my cat. My head is spinning. And I'm so confused. I don't know where to go. Or what to do. My mom said I could maybe stay with her in Missouri, but the offer didn't sound 100% certian.

She sounds like she's afraid to take me away from all of this. She seems worried that if I come down there, it wont break me out my funk it'll just make getting my life together even harder.

She wanted to know what I was doing about school, and if I'd applied to that job that I found in the paper yet. The answer to both of those questions was/is no. Because honestly I've been so stressed the last few days trying to figure out my living situation, that I haven't been able to think about anything else.

If I were to move down there, I'd need to know a few things. Like, if I could still draw food share benefits. If I can still apply for Wisconsin unemployment if I am living out of state.

My mom wanted to know what I would do if I applied for school in Missouri and then she ended up moving back to Madison. She wanted to know what I would do.

And I didn't have answers for her, the questions were all coming in too fast. When we hung up she told me to think about where I wanted to live and what I wanted to do.

I feel like I need more information. Sigh. My head hurts.

10:52PM - 07.02.2010